Day Two.. a month and half later.

Hello Again.

It's been around 2 months which is indicative of how my life (of lack thereof) has been going. Granted things have in a sense heated up. Get ready for lots of clichés.

I am faced with a dilemma that I have tried pushing off for a while, out of fear, annoyance or a misguided catholic upbringing.

I am currently embarking on a relationship.

Which scares the $#*& out of me. Not only does the possibility of allowing someone to get close me emotionally freak me out… but the physical part scares me too. I am overly cautious and a planner, yet. I am ready to get continuously physical (as Olivia who had a slight comeback on Glee a few weeks back said, "Let's get Physical") with someone.

Now the mildly conservative side of me comes front and center, how am I going to enjoy the most pleasure without the possibility of getting pregnant? I can barely keep my plants alive, there is no way I want a baby and honestly, I don't really want a baby with the guy I am seeing…. which brings on a veranda of other issues.

As I am the following:
-lazy
-forgetful
-busy
-a novice
I am going to attempt to start birth control and continuous use of condoms… I would like to double up without losing the end result.
The next dilemma I face is… how do I obtain birth control as I don't really have a doctor and I am lazy and busy.

Ah… problem solved. I can clearly remember protestors every morning on a corner showing pornographic guttural images outside of building. Amid my instant urges to honk, flip off and shout "Grow a Vagina" to the predominately male protestors, I remember that building is planned (or plan to avoid) parenthood is located.
I've done the necessary research and figured out a strategy… just because I really am that immature and secretive, that I really don’t want anyone to know that I am going there. I am going to call first thing, set up an appointment and get going on
this preventive game plan.

The other issue. The boy. So... now I have some pros and cons to duke out.

Item one: Defining what it is I am doing
Ok. What do we do together.
F*%$. Watch Television.
F-buddies. I think.

Item two: Defining what I actually want
No commitment. Something fun to do.

Item three: the Conclusion
Stay on course (feeling like a skipper). No need to divulge any further thoughts or effort.

If things go in a different direction, then re-assess.

Foreshadowing through the looking glass … I think he may want more.

Rough seas approaching.

Day One

As this is the first day of the rest of my blogging life. Cheers. (I am not sure if I like when people say that or not I feel like an imposter on the royal court). Cheers. Hello.

Here's a short introduction (as to preserve my identity for now, I shall keep it in the first person).

I am woman (weird saying that, but at 23, I am clearly no longer a girl)
who lives in the thriving Silicon Valley of California (as explained to me recently, there are supposedly flying cars that are driven here, haven't seen them, but I am on the lookout).

I graduated from a liberal school (as most universities are) and after one short summer of freedom was lured into the corporate work world (of the most conservative type). While at most times stressed out, I try to make the most of it as I find my way after fulfilling my obligations to my parents. Well it has been 1 year 7 months or so my linked in profile says so (another gimmick to help "launch" your career, in all honesty, I am not sure who has time to read and update these things besides the unemployed, then again, I am adding "blogging" to my repertoire).

SO.. the purpose aka the mission statement or the reason for the season (wait, I think that's Jesus, let's not cut into that slice of pie).

Wow, I lied and it's only first day, now jumping into third person…

Moni's Mode of Operation: A creative space to analyze observations and release emotions/creativity/energy for life and maybe, if she get's brave enough to release her findings on the world and get feedback.

Please note: I have found that people especially women's emotions/feeling/thoughts can change from one day to the next or hour or minutes. Anything said on the current or future posts are meant to entertain thoughts and ideas and not to become incriminating or hurtful.

Welcome. Enjoy the mundane-ness of it all.